You know how when you sit down for coffee with a good friend and there is something weighing heavy on your heart that you just want to get off? Some big question or burden that you just want to be real with them about? You and your friend settle into a table in the corner and they ask, “Okay, so tell me what’s going on? How are you doing?” And you pull your coffee cup to your lips with both hands, take a sip, breathe that heavy sight, and say, “Can I just be really honest with you?”
Yeah, you know what I’m talking about? Okay good because I think every single time I sit down to write, my gut instinct is to start with this sentence: “Can I just be really honest with you?” Not that I ever sit down with the intent to lie to you, because that’s not the case. But I have such a deep desire to be real, raw, and honest with you and here’s why:
We live in a world where personas of perfection are presented as if to be the real thing…but they’re not.
I’m currently walking through a season where community is almost non-existent and friendships are extremely slim in my daily life. Often I find myself just wanting to get that cup of coffee with a friend and just pour out my heart to someone who knows me, to someone with whom I feel safe to do so. Sometimes I just want to look across the table and say, “Can I just be really honest?”
But I’m finding it hard to find true community in this season of life, and I could definitely ramble on about the tears I’ve shed in regards to that. I could talk about dealing with that deep desire for friendship when there is none. I could tell you about the failed attempts to make friends and the desperate measures to which I have gone to just to have a conversation with a stranger in a coffee shop. All of these things could be mildly interesting; some would be downright entertaining because my life sometimes just lends itself to comedy.
But honestly, I’d really rather tell you what Jesus has been teaching me in the midst of this.
He’s teaching me that He can handle my questions. He can handle my hurts. He can handle my fears about the unknown. He can handle my frustration and anger. He can handle all of it…and not only can He handle it, He wants me to bring it to Him.
“Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.” –Psalm 55:22
It may seem like the obvious thing to be learning right now, but just because it’s the obvious thing doesn’t make it the easy thing. And no, I’m not learning all these things for the very first time, but I’m learning them in a new way, in a deeper way. I mean, rarely do I ever learn something just once and it sticks and I master it perfectly. [And let’s be real: by rarely I mean pretty much never.] And He’s been reminding me of all the times He has been faithful to provide just want I need exactly when I need it. He’s been showing me that He is the ever-present, always willing to listen, friend who is sitting across from me in that coffee shop.
So let me encourage you, Beloved. No matter the mountain that lies ahead, no matter what weighs heavy on your heart, He can handle it. And not only can He handle it, He will meet you in the midst of it all. And I can say that because I’m sitting here in the midst of all the crazy, uncertainty of my own life and I am continuing to see how Jesus is meeting me in the midst of the crazy, guiding my steps, and teaching me how to rest in peace, trust in His truth, and hear His voice as He guides.
Beloved, can I just be really honest with you? No matter what you face or where you are, Jesus hasn’t left you. And let me just tell you, He loves you so very much.